2019 Objectives & Summary

May 13, 2019 Leave a comment

2019 Objectives
2019 Theme: “Simple Life”
Survive 365 Days in 2019
62 Miles Bike Ride – Rosedale Ride – March
62 Miles Bike Ride – Outlaw 100 – October
Daily crunches – 2 minutes
Daily sword training – 10 minutes
Daily weight training – 60 minutes
Daily 2-Mile Hike/40 lbs pack [rain, shine, snow] – 40 minutes
Daily Guitar Practice
Weekly 2.4 Mile Long Distance Swim
Weekly subsurface swim with one breath
Weekly 40 Miles Cycling
Delete Social Contact Desire [lifetime]
Delete Acceptance Desire [lifetime]
Delete Status Desire [lifetime]

Summary
Grief Recovery from Mother’s Death
Skip 2019 May Vacation
Restore Ham Radio Communication
Restore Ham Radio Packet Radio Communication
Restore Mesh Network Communication
Setup Music Recording Studio
Convert to Power Pole Connectors
Organize 24U server Rack
Finalize Poweredge 2950 Backup File Server with Dedup
Finalize Poweredge R710 Hyper-V Server
Switch from AT&T to Spectrum Internet
Study CISCO Certification
Build CISCO LAN Network & Wireless Lab
Restart Journal and change context to “Letter to Mom”
Relocate Child #1 back to 1801Basecamp
Relocate Child #2 (Year1 Medical School, San Antonio) away from 1801Basecamp
Add Med School books to reading plan.
Child #1 Nursing Graduation
Mom-Year1 Death Anniversary

2019 Books, Paper and Manuals
Paper-Promises
Paper-Speech Act and Conversation
Paper-Taxonomy of Psychopathology
Paper-Diagnosis Treatment Trichotillomania
Manual-DISM Guide
Manual-Cisco-2901 Hardware Installation Guide
Manual-Cisco-3750v2 Install Guide
Book-Windows 2016-Exam_Ref 70-740 Storage
Book-Windows 2016-Network Teaming
Book-Master StorageSpaces Direct
Book-NIST-National Institute of Standard Technology-Cyber Security
Book-NTSB Investigative Process
Book-Nano Server 2016
Book-Cisco Certification 200-105
Book-Handbook of Approach and Avoidance
Book-Handbook of Conversation Analysis
Book-Psychology-How To Do Things With Words
Book-Psychology-DSM5-Handbook of Differential Diagnosis
Book-Psychology-Speech Acts
Book-Psychology-Handbook For Management Of Mood Disorder
Book-Psychology-What Predicts Divorce
Book-Psychology-Death Mourning andBurial
Book-Psychology-Almost A Psychopath
Book-Networking-Router-200-105 StudyGuide
Book-Psychology-Silent Grief
Book-Psychology-Death of A Parent
Book-Networking-Cisco 3750G Manual-Binder
Book-Networking-Cisco 2901Manual-Binder
Book-Networking-Cisco AironetManual-Binder
Book-Medicine-Clinically Oriented Anatomy 8Ed
Book-Medicine-User’s Guide to Literature 3Ed
Book-Medicine-Current Diagnosis and Treatment
Book-Medicine-Principles of Internal Medicine
Book-Medicine-Bates Guide To Physical Examination
Book-Medicine-Physiology
Book-Psychology-Handbook of Counselling
Book-Psychology-Gottman What Predicts Divorce
Book-Psychology-DSM5 Handbook of Differential Diagnosis
Book-Psychology-Handbook of Conversation Analysis
Paper-When Others Inititiate Repair
Book-Psychology-DSM5 in Action
Book-Book of Five Rings
Book-SystemAdmin-IT Architecture for Dummies
Book-Psychology-Principles of Mental Hygiene
Book-Psychology-A Mind that Found Itself
Book-Psychology-Psychology of Adjustment
Book-Psychology-The Normal Mind
Book-Psychology-Emotions of Normal People
Book-Psychology-Feeblemindedness It’s Causes
Book-Medicine-Advanced Medicine Recall
Book-Medicine-100 Cases of Clinical Medicine
Book-Medicine-USMLE First Aid Cases
Book-Cycling-Wheelbuilding
Book-Medicine-Every Patient Tells a Story
Book-Psychology-The Great Leveler
Book-Psychology-FOCUS The Hidded Driver of Excellece
Book-Finance-Creating a Portfolio Like Warren Buffett
Book-Finance-Sustainable Investing
Book-Audio-SONAR Cakewalk Reference Guide
Book-Guitar-Bass Guitar For Dummies
Book-Guitar-Guitar All In One for Dummies

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2018 Summary

May 4, 2019 Leave a comment

2018 OBJECTIVES:
2018 Theme: “Dyadic Partnership vs Paternal to produce self-efficacy”
Survive 365 Days in 2018
62 Miles Bike Ride – Rosedale Ride – March
62 Miles Bike Ride – Outlaw 100 – October
Daily crunches – 2 minutes
Daily sword training – 10 minutes
Daily weight training – 60 minutes
Daily 2-Mile Hike/25 lbs pack [rain, shine, snow] – 40 minutes
Weekly 2.4MileLong Distance Swim
Weekly subsurface swim with one breath
Weekly 40 Miles Cycling
Delete Social Contact Desire [lifetime]
Delete Acceptance Desire [lifetime]
Delete Status Desire [lifetime]
Delete comfortable bed, sleep in a military cot/sleeping bag [lifetime]
Read more
Write less
Listen more
Payoff House
Be there with Mom until the end December 19, 2019
Bury Mom, December 26, 2019

READING LIST
Book-Narcissism at Work
Book-Wiki Management
Book-Scarcity
Book-Self-Conscious Emotion
Book-Hypomania
Book-Oracle11g for Dummies
Book-The Great Leveler
Book-Collective Works of Jung
Book-Maps of Meaning
Book-Ethics of Belief
Book-Jung’s Four Archetypes
Book-IT Disaster Recovery
Book-Jung Dreams
Book-Outwitting our Nerves
Book-Ordinary Men
Book-Neuroeconomics
Book-Jealousy a Forbidden Passion
Book-12 Rules for Life
Book-On Becoming a Person
Book-When You Don’t Know Where to turn To
Book-Oedipus Complex
Book-Handbook of Social Psychology
Book-Handbook of Differential Diagnosis
Book-Jung Key Ideas
Book-Jung Seven Sermons to the Dead
Paper-Causes of Emotional Evanescence
Book-Microsoft Manual of Style
Paper-7 Characteristics of a Covert Narcissist
Book-Envy Theory, Perspectives on the Psychology of Envy
Book-Raspberry Pi for Dummies
Book-Cancer Connective Tissue
Book-Cancer System Biology
Book-Cancer Caregiving A-Z
Book-Medical Decision Making
Book-Stunned by Grief
Book-Cancer Symptoms Science
Paper-Fentanyl Transdermal Route Side Effects
Paper-Opiods and Chronic Pain
Paper-Common and Rare Side Effects for Fentanyl
Book-Depression of Grief
Book-Kierkegard Concept of Despair
Book-Rank Art of Living
Book-Group Psychology and Ego
Book-Kierkegard Concept of Despair
Book-Denial of Death

2018 started with positive notes. I had all my plans laid out the same way as the previous years. Little did I know that I will experience a tragic loss of my mother by the end of the year. I’m a little okay now but it’s too early to tell if I am truly back to normal. Even talking to people or sharing some intimate things here is a burden. Maybe in a few months. Physically I am fine and doing the routines daily. No changes there.

I’ve recorded multiple long conversation with my mother on her last days and I am still playing the recording from time to time and most of the time I end up smiling while I’m listening. Her going away is now a much accepted fact compared to last month.

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