Dream: Unskilled Painter Day 0046

Dream#003 – The Unskilled Painter
*I was a participant of a well-known painting contest
*In the preparation room, we gathered all the things needed for the contest and I have everything I need but when I saw the judges’ list (an empty paper with 2 columns and 6 rows table) that we are suppose to fill out, I could not remember their names nor know their names.
*When I entered the museum where the contest was held, I was in awe because:
1.I don’t know how to paint
2.I don’t have my judges’ list filled out
3.I don’t even know where to start painting
4.I have a large empty white canvas
5.The participant across my table did not share his work with me. He had a coach with him
6.After a long pause, I decided to just paint but it was only a “dot”, I did not know where to start

Context: The night before I went to sleep
*I was reading about Rice Farming (my mother left us with farmlands, a small rice field and rice milling business and I used to be involved with the chores (that I disliked) with my dad before I moved to the US)
*I was watching how Rice Milling machine were made
*I was learning the process of Rice production from seed to milling
*I was learning how to dry Rice during rainy harvest seasons
*I was thinking of how I can integrate my electronic, electrical, mechanical, sensors, computer networking, wireless networking skills into what mom/dad left for us.

 

 

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Dream: Empty Port + Toppled Electric Pole/Broken Solar Panels; Day 0045

"That which you most need will be found where you least want to look" Jung

Hiking with VoiceDream
For the past week, I’ve been reading the book “Jungian Psychoanalysis”. I mostly listened to books instead of reading it. I am using the app called Voice Dream Reader. During my daily 2Mile walk, instead of listening to music, I am listening to my books that I queued for reading. 2 miles will take me around 38 minutes to complete, that is 38 minutes of reading. In the Voice Dream option, I set the Speech Rate to 200 words per minute. By the end of the workout, I can normally finish a chapter every day (depending on the topic), hiked two miles with a 40-lb pack and get my broken heart a soothing pounding which serves a daily cardiac test… then I will say to myself.. "I have another day to experience".

Amplification
Chapter 10-Amplification: Unveiling Emergent Patterns of Meaning. The chapter is about the interpretation of dreams using "amplification". We can understand our dreams and its meaning if we examine what took place before/prior to the dream and amplify the symbolism (example: a road is a journey, a death is a rebirth or a new beginning, a wedding is a transition of life to another phase, a heavy knock on your door is a new opportunity etc.). But the symbolism is so cryptic (hidden) because it is only the dreamer who has a direct experience of reality can connect to what the symbol stands for. Once familiar with the symbols, you can decode the dream yourself into some form of a message or a much needed encouragement or enlightenment especially when you are in a difficult circumstance in life.

Since Mom’s departure (December 19, 2018), and me being back in Austin and back to work and doing normal stuff, I have not had any dreams at all and I am not sure why. Maybe nothing is bothering me or maybe many things are bothering me so much that I am totally out from reality or going crazy. But last night, amazingly I had two dreams of which I thought was difficult to decode at first. I will just make the story in bulleted format so that it is easy to read.

DREAM#001-Empty Port
*Travelling with my family after Mom’s burial day
*Instructed my sisters to make sure that I will get a ticket for the boat trip
*I did not get a ticket
*I was left at Merida Port
*I was running late and my luggage was with them but the boat and family left without me
*I thought that my luggage was lost, it was left at the boat terminal by itself unattended
*I got my luggage back

“My grief journey will be long, lonely and difficult but…".

DREAM#002-Toppled Electric Pole + Broken Solar Panels
*I was doing an inspection of my fence in the backyard
*I saw a fence post brace that looks like it was broken but at close inspection, it was okay
*I saw a tall electric pole at the back of my house, it looks like it was about to snap
*Then moments later, it snapped damaging my solar panels (some of it)
*I went into the garage driveway to assess the damage and the damage was not that bad but some solar panels were in pieces littered by the front yard
*I told Brittney (my eldest daughter) to pickup the pieces and group it together so that I can take a picture and send it to the insurance company.

Context:
January 2014, Changed all my investment to JAGLX only. I believe that “Humans will need medicine more than technology ie. phones, computers, IoT.”
September 2016, 8.4kw Solar Panel Installed
September 2017, paid off Solar Panel
November 2016-Papa Jojo passed away at age 86
2016-2018-Wife’s emotional avalanche. Quit her job but was given an indefinite personal leave. Plans to retire at 52.
2018-paid off house
May 2018-Brent graduated at UT Austin (Pre Med)
June-December 2018-Brent took a gap year to apply for Med School. He also took a job as a medical scriber in Temple, TX which is >50 miles from home. He drove to work using my 2002 Yukon which will need gas refilling every 3 days @ $45/fill up.
December 2018, my mother passed away at age 86.
December 2018, JAGLX gave $6+/share https://seekingalpha.com/symbol/JAGLX/dividends/no_dividends_history
January 2019, wife’s emotional stability back to normal or even much better. Wants to see Brent finish Med School (4 years to go, we think)
January 2019, the need of a new car arises (for Brent)
February 1, 2019. Medical school match day, UT Health Science accepted Brent, still waiting for Baylor
August 2019, Brittney will be moving back to Round Rock and will commute to UMHB for the rest of her nursing school.
August 2019, Brent will leave for Med School

"I should not be so concerned of the future anymore (or instead shift focus) because things are looking up, my life strategies are working."

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